My First Post

Well, I am following in the footsteps of so many wonderful IF women who are bloggers. I guess my blog will follow my day-in-day-out journey of my IF life. I hope this will prove to not only be informative to those who will eventually have to walk the road so many of us have endured, but also to perhaps help myself as some sort of therapeutic tool that would help me get through this very difficult period of my life. It's so strange that getting a BFP is not coming easy. Not to sound cocky or anything, but shy of winning the lottery, I have always gotten what I wanted in life. Not to say that I haven't work hard for what I have, but I have always had the outlook that if you want it bad enough and work hard enough, you will get what you want. Not so true in the case of IF.

Here's my IF story... DH and I started TTC in October of 2007 when we got married, I was 24 then. So DH and I TTC cycle after cycle. Every time AF showed her ugly face, I scoured the internet looking for new techniques and timing methods. After 6 months passed, I started charting. Thus began the daily scrutiny and analyzation of my body. Everything from BBT'ing, to CM, CP, and BD'ing was documented. All of the crazy acronyms are now my second language. On my 1 year anniversary, my OBGYN referred me to a Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE). Not how pictured it- not romantic at all! After months of testing for DH and I were diagnosed with Male Factor Infertility (MFIF). DH has low Sperm Morphology (10%). Are you kidding?!?!

So here we are at almost 2 years of TTC and we are still not PG. At this point, everyone I know has stopped asking when are we gonna get PG. They don't know the exacts of what's going on, but I'm pretty sure they have suspicions. Our protocol for right now is IUI w/ injections of Repronex. Our insurance covers 6 cycles of this. We have already completed 1 and got a BFN. Felt like a huge punch in the gut. Literally took my breath away. I really was not prepared for that. So right now I am in the last month of a self prescribed break from TTC. September is when we are scheduled to try again. Not sure what we'll do if this doesn't work. IVF is not really an option as insurance does not cover it. But will definitely look into adoption at that point.